ハンナ・シューベルトさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ハンナ・シューベルトInstagram)「Looking back on a very tough year... PART 2 : in General! Not just climbing wise this was one of the hardest years I ever had. People tend to say "it was bad but I learnt a lot" yes it was bad and yes I learned a lot but I'm honestly not sure if I wanted to learn these things and especially in such a tough way... After gaining 10 kilos because of my binge eating problem (see the post of February) I had to face challenges and struggles in my daily life that I never had troubles with before.. like : 🔸Waking up in the morning, not wanting to leave bed, not wanting to leave the house, not wanting to see anyone, being seen by anyone, not fancy doing anything (not even cooking/baking/climbing which means something if you know me well) 🔸 Not being able to look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted and ashamed 🔸 Not being able to choose something to wear and wanting to throw out all of my clothes as everything felt tight and uncomfortable 🔸Having the feeling not deserving to be liked/loved . This was mostly in the first few months of the year but once your self confidence got such a huge crack it's hard to recover from it and believe in and love yourself again... It got a lot better since I started therapy in june! Just doing something against it and talking about it with a professional helps a lot! Life is definitely a lot more enjoyable when you feel comfortable in your own skin! Glad to have this feeling back now :) Thanks to the people who stood by my side during this hard time who kept believing in me, supporting me, and made me feel valuable and loved. Hope you guys know who you are - cannot thank you enough❤️」11月25日 2時47分