クリス・ドートリーさんのインスタグラム写真 - (クリス・ドートリーInstagram)「I was very hesitant to make this post... ⁣ but then I thought, I can’t be the only one who’s been here and has felt this way... and maybe this will help some of you out there that may be going through similar struggles. Maybe it won’t. If this doesn’t resonate with you that’s ok. Please disregard the following, please don’t leave any negative comments and have an amazing day! ⁣ ⁣ So here goes:⁣ Wow. What a year it has been. Transformative, introspective, self reflective... and many more “ives” I’m sure lol!⁣ From last February to now? Damn... I don’t even know where to begin... well... I’ll just give you cliff notes for now as I’m sure I’ll swing in and drop more as time goes on... so... Right after the pandemic hit, I got really lazy. I got depressed. Anxiety was at an all time high! I guess I just got extremely overwhelmed by the new normal. I mean... how could I not? There was nowhere to escape. No tour to go on. Nowhere to travel to. Just the same walls every day. The same people every day. I was having to finally see what my wife had to deal with on a daily basis WITHOUT me or my help. It was hard for me. Like really fucking hard! For the past 14 years, I would be home for a few weeks, be super daddy, the PEACE OUT! I got to leave again and run away from reality.... and myself. ⁣ Now what? Full time daddy? Full time husband? What does that even look like? What is life? Who am I even? I had a complete identity crisis and I was forced to finally see myself... and just how subpar I was at parenting or being a good friend, partner, or husband. But not after trying to escape the chains of reality for months on end. It was quite humbling to say the least. Oh and my substance consumption was at an all time high. I drank practically every day, starting with the occasional day drink or 5 o’clock cocktail because why not? We’re in a pandemic yall! It’s new rules! Right??? Lol! I even started smoking cigarettes again!!! What!!??? Yeah!!! The BEST TIME to start smoking right!!??? I ended up smoking about a half pack of a day before I was finally like “what the fuck am I doing!???” and finally gave them up cold turkey after about 4 months or so. Read on in comments.」2月4日 3時07分