アシュリー・ハートさんのインスタグラム写真 - (アシュリー・ハートInstagram)「It's been raining a lot in Austin, with thunderstorms howling through. It suited my mood and comforted the demand for stillness my body has been aching for. Yet no matter how much 'work' I do on myself, still niggling deep down my sense of worth derives itself from 'doing'. How busy I am. What I'm achieving. Most often discounting 'worth' for simple 'being'. I feel choice-less lately and understand my partner's frustration when I'd project healthy mindset tools at him, to switch these 'lower energy' spaces around. I'd believed before now, happiness and higher vibration are a choice. And they are but not in the way I used to think. It's in the surrendering to the stillness and being honoring of the seasons we all go through that then a touch of the rainbow can be seen in the greyest sky. A smile in these sheets of rain. Comfort in the storm outside. See, it doesn't mean having triumphed over feelings and 'spiritually bypassing' bodily communication with 'positive thinking' and forced action. It's a holding of one's self within it all, a not trying to change but creating space within our beings to be with ourselves in all its sensations, and cycles. And that 'worthlessness' and worry, like the world may end if we keep surrendering to stillness or honoring tender places, tethered thinking, or even overeating. They too are simply aspects of ourselves to welcome, be heard and held. Slowly taking their power away by creating more space around them, with our love and gentleness, than the fixed sense of truth in them. Being able to connect with a deep knowing within ourselves that there is much more to us than what we're doing, how we're feeling, and that second arrow of the stories we tell ourselves about it all. This process eventually allows action to arrive from a place of wholeness, not lack. Being moved from pure inspiration rather than fear of not being enough. And my goodness it is a process, one I'm right in the middle of. Learning over and over again to be easy with myself. To let myself off the hook and trust metamorphosis is yet again at work. We must honor the cocoon before we can fly right?? And truly trust all the cycles and seasons of our lives 🦋」5月17日 4時51分