Ashley Jamesさんのインスタグラム写真 - (Ashley JamesInstagram)「Me in 2019: "I don't want children." Me in 2020: "I promise I won't be one of those annoying people who only posts photos of their children." Me in 2023: LOOK HOW CUTE MY BABIES ARE 🥹❤️ Guess the moral of the story is that people change their minds and grow. And also, I don't really get why photos of someone babies are any worse than selfies or dogs or boyfriends or friends, you know? They're all just captured moments of our lives and the things that make up our lives. Anyway, this is my favourite time of day. The few minutes both the babies are in my bed as I'm waking up. Tommy sleeps in the spare room and gets a full night sleep and then gets up with Alf. We did have a couple of 6:30am this week, but now it seems back to 5:20am. And then I'm in my room with Ada. She does the first stretch of the night in the bedside bassinet, usually around 10/11 - 3am. Although last night was 4am! And then we cosleep the latter part of the night - it means I can feed her lying down and go back to sleep. Next time she wakes up, I move to the other side and go back to sleep. I hear Tommy and Alf coming up the stairs around 7am (although it was 8am today because Tommy gave me a lie in! ❤️) And then Alf goes "knock knock". And he comes in for cuddles, usually asking for his programs in the TV. It's the best. This way seems to work for Tommy and I as we're both getting sleep. Him a solid chunk, even though he's up early, and me up through the night but able to lie in a little more. Everything seems to be rosy at the moment, but if I'm honest, I am nervous about when Ada is a little older. I loved the newborn stage with Alf and then my mental health dipped around 6 months postpartum. Saying that, it coincided with moving away from my friends, the end of lockdown, and Alf was also a very different baby, up every hour of the night. So let's see. We're more experienced now, our worlds have already changed, and we have a support network. But sometimes, I just hope we can freeze time. Like my happiness could be skating on a frozen lake. You never quite know when it's all going to crack... But then I catch my breath and tell myself to stay in the present. Happy. 🤍」5月20日 19時18分