Ashley Jamesさんのインスタグラム写真 - (Ashley JamesInstagram)「Today was Ada's first day of childcare... And Alfie's first day back. 🥹💔 To say today has been an emotional rollercoaster is an understatement. I've felt all the feels. Guilt, heartbreak, worry, excitement, relief, nostalgia for alf's first day. Nervous too. Definitely nervous about how it will go, as she's still not really taking a bottle. Although she's 3 days into weaning. I took Alfie at 7:30am. He was so excited! And then I went home, fed Ada as much as possible whilst I got ready for my shoot, and then ran back at 9am. I packed some fresh breastmilk, a frozen breastmilk, and parsnip mixed with breastmilk purée. And then I took her in. She was so excited to see her brother, and him excited to see her. I went home to do my shoot and waited all day for a call. I pumped at lunch as my boobs were going to explode and I want to keep my supply up! I got lots of updates - and almost ran to pick them both up at 5pm. I had to sit on the floor and give her the b00b straight away. 🤣🤱 I cannot believe it. They confirmed what I knew - she's active, loves people, and wants to bounce around and be upright all day long. She even took milk from the bottle (even though she didn't suck it). It's SUCH a relief. When I feel guilt for needing (and wanting) to work, I remind myself that no one judges dads for going back to work. And we are also providers these days. And ambitious. I've loved the last 6 months. Best chapter ever. And I wish I could freeze time. But I'm also excited for a bit of time for me to focus. It's been amazing but it was getting harder and harder to juggle! I'm so proud of myself for navigating motherhood and work second time around! Especially whilst exclusively breastfeeding. (I still intend to breastfeed). It really has been the best 6 months ever, but now it's time for the next chapter. She'll still be with me twice a week! Now I need an early night. Partially the emotions, and partially how tired I am after the most productive day I've had for 6 months! I hope anyone who started school or childcare today had a positive experience. We did it. And to the amazing childcare providers: THANK YOU for what you do for our children. 🙏❤️」9月5日 4時51分